Day 24 Saturday April 2, 2011
I swear visiting Fresno is such a shit show... I have no down time and I am all over the place. I swear I need a day of relaxing after I visit, but I am having so much fun! I am seeing all the good people in my life that I have been friends with for years and years and I feel like myself again. Just being a low key, fun loving, smart ass, sarcastic, filthy mouth, bit of a country boy self. Kicking back with some of my boys (all straight) and throwing back some beers and talking mess. This was a good time.
I met up with my ex today and we had a very difficult talk and I wish I could share it but I promised her I would keep it between us. After our talk, I was completely bothered and a bit devastated....for her, not me. Our talk made me question if anyone is trust worthy. Are there people out there that are in it to win it? People who say they are going to do what they say they are going to do? People who will be committed? It was so out of left field and I NEVER saw that coming and neither did she.
There is a saying live by and people criticize me for it and say I am jaded or bitter and it is this:
"Love is temporary and finances are forever."
No that may make me sound bitter or angry or even jaded but it is very true. My ideal relationship if I ever get into one will consist of separate finances. I will NOT buy anything with anyone. not a house, not a car, not a boat...I'll buy groceries but that's about as far as I go. Separate accounts, separate bills, separate insurance...everything separate... That takes so much pressure off the rest. The most common reasons for break ups and divorce have to do with finances. Taking all that out of the equation, makes things easier. Plus if I need to pull the eject lever, I want to be able to say "PEACE" and get the hell out with none of the nonsense drama and fighting. I just want out. I don't want to separate bills, accounts, mortgages, cars... I just want a clean split if that happens.
Is there anything wrong with that? Thoughts?
Needless to say after this, I had no sex drive to speak of....
AIDS Fact:
This is interesting:
Sorry to have missed you...boo :(
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