Day 34

Day 34 Tuesday April 12, 2011

  ug these damn allergies are killing me!!!! Good thing I don't feel in the mood because I only have 11 DAYS LEFT!!! almost single digits!!!! I say 11 day because at midnite on Saturday into Sunday I can do this damn thing... alone I am sure... LOL!!!

   Anyhow, not much to report since I am not feeling well....so what to talk about....what to talk about... hmmmm... OH!!!! I ran into someone at the grocery store today...someone I used to "hang out" with, who pretty much disappeared as most gays do....so weird... anyhow, he was sincerely happy to see me and I as well. He is a very nice person...so we were talking and he was being flirtatious and then he asked if I was seeing anyone and I said no and he asked why and I said because guys are flaky and wouldn't you know it, he got uncomfortable...REALLY?!?!? REALLY!?!?! Why so uncomfortable? Guys are flaky including  him and he knew that.

  Here's the deal people, why the hell do you and I am not saying as the reader,...but you as in humanity...why do you get so uncomfortable when you get called out? If you don't want to get called out, then DON'T DO IT! Simple people...simple... I truly feel our society has become so entitled that there is such a blatant disregard for others. Own up to your shit people...OWN UP! I have been called out before by someone I did that to and you know what I said?

 

    "You know what, you're right. I totally blew you off and I am sorry if I hurt your feelings or if I have left a bad impression of who I am. I'll be honest, I didn't want anything more because I can't give anything more. it has nothing to do with you...it is simply because I don't want to put effort into anything right now. I know it's a shitty thing to say, but it is the truth and I hope you can at least have some sort of respect for me because of it. I won't feed you crap."

   Now I was and probably still am a piece of crap in that guys eyes, but at least I was honest and I can walk away with that and he can walk away with the fact that I had enough respect for not only him but myself to tell the truth and not make up a lame excuse.

   So I am having dinner with the grocery store guy tomorrow....WHAT!!! It's just dinner and he knows that...he also knows about this...