Day 21

Day 21 Wednesday March 30, 2011

 Oh Wednesday you little rabbit...you mean nothing to me. Yah...today meant nothing to me. Just another day. Nothing really  to report...nothing cool...lame...just lame.

  So what to talk about...hmmmm... Well I am almost half way there...and I am constantly thinking about the day I get to "celebrate"...and by "celebrate"...I mean ...well you know...

  I really think I should either write erotic stories or write/produce porn. I am really creative, although some of the things are a bit Matrix style and would require some green screens, harnesses, and lifts...too much?

  Things are changing mentally...minus the fantasies...obviously...but I am feeling really lonely which I guess has to do with the lack of intimacy which is making me ask myself if I distract myself with human contact. I have NEVER EVER been the type that needs someone or HAS to be in a relationship..in fact...I am pretty opposite...but I do miss the human touch.

  We are all relateable people and we all do require the touch of others. It has been proven that people who lack human touch get sick more often and for longer durations, have more depressive disorders, do not thrive and maintain as well in public/social situations, and are irritable. Granted this was tested in monkey's as well, but monkey's are our cousins..so they count...have you seen a monkey with a wig on? They look like at least of your relatives....don't lie..

   Think about it though. Makes perfect sense. The adrenaline you get when someone touches you... the warmth you feel when you are having a bad day or dealing with a difficult situation and someone like a friend or a loved one hugs you... when you're laughing and you hug the person you are laughing with don't you get that feeling of that extra joy? The human touch is a beautiful thing.

   So lacking that touch in the intimacy department is starting to get to me, but I am almost half way there. I am realizing that laying in bed with that person who makes you feel so comfortable, so wanted, so trusted isn't such a bad thing....or maybe I am just feeling lonely... who the hell knows... ug I need a drink

 AIDS Fact:

The impact of HIV/AIDS on women and girls has been particularly devastating. Women and girls now comprise 50 percent of those aged 15 and older living with HIV.¹