Day 31

Day 31 Saturday April 9, 2011

   Today was probably one of the nicest days....the weather was great, I got to hang out with Jeannie, I went to a Vegan dessert party...YES A Vegan Dessert Party... it was amazing... way to go vegans...great desserts!!!

   So I was the only gay there...well minus a couple of lesbians, who, by the way were AWESOME!!! I really liked them!! They were so funny and so sweet....but I digress. It was so nice to have a change of scenery and to be around people who weren't looking for a hole to put it in or looking for someone to put it in them. Very refreshing!! Everyone who was there was there just to be there, to meet new people, to share experiences, to share thoughts, to share themselves in a nonsexual way.

  This blog was mentioned and I will tell you this, not one person cared....yes, not 1 person cared... I was a bit taken back but then I realized, it was such a compliment. They didn't care about my sexuality. They didn't care about me being gay with a few females here and there and they could have cared less I wasn't being sexual.... they just wanted to be around me because of the things we discussed and I felt like I had a voice. I felt I had an opinion that mattered and I wasn't just some notch or conquest. I wasn't straight or gay, good looking or ugly, young or old.... I was just a person in a group of people.

  LESSON LEARNED: As I have said before, I feel like sometimes I lose myself and who I am and for what? So I can be just like the majority of lame ass, insecure, unhappy, shallow, judgemental (now a lot of you say I am judgemental...please realize, it is just a joke...I am not being serious), pathetic gays.

   I have been told, I talk too much and joke around too much and guys don't like that. I need to be more serious, and ball bust less...so basically I need to be a drone like most gays...yah well, guess what people, I have never been that person, nor do I ever want to be that person. I love my personality, my sarcasm, my wit...and if you don't, then you don't and that is ok... All that has made me who I am, helped me survive, and has left me with the most amazing people in my life. All that makes me someone you are not...it makes me, me... Flaws (and I know I have a lot) and all!