Day 41!!!!!!!!

Day 41 Tuesday April 19, 2011

  Why can't I sleep???? Is it the anticipation of what's to come??? oh yah... 4 DAYS LEFT!!!!!! Can you believe it??? To tell you the truth, haven't been feeling very sexual at all.... not sure why...just don't....

  So Sac guy & I spoke again last night for another 1.5hrs... am beginning to think he is sweet...not good...not good...but the thing I like is I feel absolutely no pressure... I feel no pressure to h date or be with him... I am just enjoying him...LOL...not like that. Now he lived in a certain city for 12yrs which makes me have reservations about him.I don't do well with those people, but he has admitted to falling into certain habits (not drugs) as those people do....but he realized it was never him & he was never happy....he's moved to Sac to start a new life & a real life... I find that commonality because I did the same thing...

  I am not sure how I feel....just going along for this ride, but we are going to see each other this coming weekend & I am excited about that. 

 We have talked extensively about living in major cities & the gay communites that exist within those cities & just how lonely it can be & how there is such a disconnect, lack of real friends, & lack of support. We see things so much alike & it's refreshing to hear someone say what I feel. 

  So did I tell you I have 4 DAYS!!!!! 4 DAYS TO GO!!!!