Day 3

Friday March 11, 2011

  Day 3....UH WOW!!!!

  So talk about temptation. I met one of the most amazingly good looking person yesterday and of course it has to happen while I do this... thank you! A big F'N THANK YOU!

  Originally from the Netherlands....grew up almost all his life in South Africa...and now lives in Italy... uhhhh thank you people...feel my pain...because that's all that can be felt...

  So I was introduced to him by a friend and we spoke for 7 hours...nonstop... YES nonstop...well except for the kissing that did happen BUT it was in public...no dry humping, no feeling, no touchy!!!

  I made him aware of this journey and he was very impressed...so impressed he opened up and became honest...Here's his story:

   He has a partner who lives with in Italy who he has been with for 12years... his partner met someone in Brazil while he was on a business trip and never returned to Italy... they did not speak for months and after a lot of interference from their friends and family the 2 spoke again and 7 months later the partner returned to Italy saying the relationship did not work out and now he's back to stay. Well this guy has allowed the partner to come back and has tried to work on it for 2 years now. He said the 1st year they barely spoke while living in the same house and there was absolutely no contact. I asked why he has chosen to do this (thinking....uh we're kinda kissing a lot here) and what he thinks he wants out of it.... He said he wasn't sure yet...it was just something he felt he need to do. "It is just a feeling"


   Which leads me to ask..." How does someone just abandon a person they say they love with no regards or respect for that person?" I mean we all leave relationships, but to leave a continent and not return without any discussion is beyond my comprehension. I have heard of people leaving people abruptly, but this takes the cake.  Have we become such a self-serving society that we have lost all respect for what we have built? I would never judge this guy for what he did because I do not know his reasons for doing this, but I feel that there are things I could not forgive.

  What I learned: You never know what a person is capable of... You must believe in who you are and love yourself because no one will make that hurt go away...there is not one person who can heal something like that... You and you alone are the cure for a heart break and betrayal.

  I also learned that I was able to restrain myself from a person which allowed me the chance to get to know a person and have one of the most memorable conversations ever. I found that the entire time I was thinking how badly I wanted to go back to his hotel and do the shmiggy shmagger slugger, but I found a vulnerable side to a person and maybe I was able to help his healing process by speaking to him. Maybe I did somethign right.

  I also was having some really intelegent conversations and that shocked the shit out of me!! HOLLA!!!

 

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